I don’t even know how or where I should start. It took me about two days to put into words what my exact sentiments are for what happened last Saturday, December 7, 2014 – my first ultra fangirl moment – and even this post cannot do justice to that moment.
I’ve been following Lang Leav for around two years now and I have been a fan even before she released her first book, Love and Misadventure. I was still in Legazpi when she first visited the Philippines, which was February of this year and it was torture knowing she was in the country but I couldn’t go. All I could do back then was to wish that she could come back and that by the time she does, I hoped so hard I was already in Manila by then.
Lo and behold, after about 10 months, she came back! When I first found out that Lang was coming to Manila, I really marked the date on my planner and immediately bought myself a copy of Lullabies, her second book. I counted down the days (yes, I even included it in an app I downloaded). 22 days… 15 days… 6 days… until finally…December 7, 2014 – I woke up at around 7:00AM and already browsed Twitter for the LangLeavinPH hashtag to check what the situation was and I was so amazed that as early as 5AM, there were already people waiting in Shang. I found no excuse to roll over the bed anymore because I was too afraid that I won’t be included in the 500 slots so I immediately prepared and left at around 8:00. I got there around 8:30 and saw that the line was already a bit long.
I was waiting for a friend but since she woke up late, I had to endure and make myself look like I’m cool being alone (lol). The girl in front of me suddenly talked to me and asked if I could look out for her spot because she needed to go to the comfort room. When she came back, we started talking and we became instant friends (shoutout to Ghervi!!!). We both counted down minutes because the registration was not until 10AM and the book signing proper at 12PM. I was busy live tweeting about the situation there as I was expecting other people to be curious if they could still make it or not. Switching over FB, Twitter, and Instagram plus talking to Ghervi made the waiting seem lighter. One of the photos I posted was regrammed (and posted on Facebook) by Lang Leav (which really made me feel thrilled hours before I actually met her).
At around 10:00, we were ushered to the venue by the organizers and the friendly security guards. And we continued to wait until it was our turn for the registration. We got in a few minutes after and got our signing passes.
We were on our seats at around 11:00 and had to wait for an hour (which felt like more than one) for the program to start. So I took a few photos and read random pages in my Lullabies book.
At exactly 12PM, a lady came up the stage (I’m so sorry I forgot her name) and even without her talking yet the crowd was already making noises since we all knew it was THE moment of truth. It was just a short introduction about Lang Leav and then she was already up the stage!
Before starting with a short interview, Lang led us to a simple prayer for the Philippines that we might be spared from Ruby (which I thought was really sweet of her). Here are a few things she said in the interview which I tweeted:
After her poetry reading, we got ready for the book signing proper. By this time, my hands were already ice-cold. We were called by batches, each batch with 20 people – I was number 135 so I had to wait around for the 7th batch. We all squealed when the first person who had her book signed was hugged by Lang!!! It was too sweet of her to hug almost all of her fans.
While we were in line, one of her fans who was in line with us was in a wheelchair and she happily went down the stage to approach this lady, signed her book, and hugged her. All I could say at that moment was that Lang Leav was such a sweetheart!
And finally, after waiting for months, and hours, and after constantly wishing this day would come, I can’t believe I was so close to her. I felt like I was a child, genuinely happy to have a candy in her hand for the first time. Or see up close and in person a rainbow for the first time! I handed her a simple letter and a bracelet I created and she said thank you to me for coming and for buying her book. I told her she reposted my photo on Facebook and Instagram and she said thank you again while smiling so sweetly.
And Ms. Lang, just in case you read this, I want to repeat what I said on my Instagram post and perhaps add a few more things to it:
To be able to talk to you even for a few seconds, have my book signed, and to have even hugged you – to say that I am so happy will be to understate what I felt that day (up until this moment). You don’t know how much your words inspire me and how your works pierce through my heart. Your poems and prose helped me back when my heart was suffering from heartache, and now that I am more than happy, your poems reflect what I feel, too. Thank you for coming to the Philippines, Lang, and for being so sweet! ♥️ I hope you get to read my letter and my simple gift. I’ll be waiting for your third prose-poetry book and your novel. I hope I see you again soon.
I probably need a few more weeks before I get over this feeling. And this day will never be forgotten. Can’t wait for next year! x