It has been two months.
Two months since I last updated my blog, and two months since I actually had the drive to write something. A lot of people have been asking me if I was only on hiatus, or if I actually decided that I should stop blogging. I have only myself to blame for being unable to write more often. Laziness and the desire to rest and do other things have actually taken its toll on me and no matter how much I wanted to write, my mind was either too exhausted or I was just stuck on the first sentence of a post and couldn’t continue anymore. My drafts have been piling up. My ideas come and go like the wind. I’ve hit writer’s block. And when a rock that intangible hits you hard, what do you do?
Yesterday while we were having lunch in Blending Point (the Nutrition Club we visit every weekday, more of this later on) my officemates and I were talking about restaurants and other stuff and out of nowhere, one of them opened up about my blog. And I told her, I don’t update that much anymore because of time constraint and the will I had before was not that strong anymore. And she said, “Bessy, ‘wag ganun. Ituloy mo lang.” (Bessy, don’t let it be that way. You should continue it.) And that, being such a simple statement, was a subtle but great wake-up call for me. I thought a lot about what she said and suddenly felt something inside me yearning to write. So yesterday, I had to wait until I finished with my work and started to come up with something while waiting for my officemates to change their clothes before we go to Salcedo for our Fit Club.
See, my dear reader and friends, a lot has changed in the span of two months. I finally found the right way not only to lose weight but to strive hard and be fit in a healthy way. A lot of things have been happening in my work and I am nearing my first work anniversary. I am on track with my reading challenge in Goodreads. My family has been very supportive of me on a lot of things. I’ve been making decisions and plans for things I wouldn’t even have considered two or three years ago. But God is always there, and He’s the only constant Person in my life I would never dare change.
For the past months, I’ve been trying to tell myself that, “Who cares if I don’t update my blog anymore?” I just want to live and cherish each moment. But since yesterday, I realized I miss sharing whatever I love, have, know, or learn from time to time. And maybe that’s the reason why I should I care even more that I don’t write as often as before. So now, I will try my very best to update every now and then, every chance I get. I will look for ways to improve on how my blog looks and how I interact with my readers. I am finally coming back.
And I guess, when a rock so intangible hits so hard, you just have to find a way to get over the pain it caused you and transform it to something even better. 😉