I’ve been blogging for almost 10 years now and I feel so old just thinking about it. In the past blogs I’ve made (yes, blogs, with an s because I’ve been platform hopping since 2007), I never really talked about how I started, who inspired me, but most of the time, I’ve mentioned in a blog series or two the reason WHY I blog. I’ve been really clear about this ever since that I blog to express myself and not to impress, something I learned in campus journalism back when I was in grade school.
I was fixing the books and notebooks (mostly empty) I have in my room the other day when a piece of paper, the words written on it almost dissolving or something of that sort. That itself was a sure sign that the ink has been spilled there for years. Now, it was not new for me since I almost always find bits of what I’ve written in the past inserted in a book or notebook somewhere. But this. This one was different.
It has been two months.
Two months since I last updated my blog, and two months since I actually had the drive to write something. A lot of people have been asking me if I was only on hiatus, or if I actually decided that I should stop blogging. I have only myself to blame for being unable to write more often. Laziness and the desire to rest and do other things have actually taken its toll on me and no matter how much I wanted to write, my mind was either too exhausted or I was just stuck on the first sentence of a post and couldn’t continue anymore. My drafts have been piling up. My ideas come and go like the wind. I’ve hit writer’s block. And when a rock that intangible hits you hard, what do you do?
On the first day of 2014, I did this post where I made a list of stuff related to 2013. I’ll be making it a tradition of some sort just for a quick recap of how my 2014 went. It’s always fun (and a bit sad) to look back and reflect on what happened and remember the lessons you’ve learned or what made you happy. And I think it’s really good to share it with other people because maybe they need even a little ounce of motivation, too! Because it’s 2014, I’ll be specifying 14 things in each list!
I’m saying goodbye to the girl who was naive. I’m not going to cling to childish reactions anymore. I’m going to say goodbye to the easily stressed person I was and always remind myself to not be anxious and pray without ceasing. I will open my mind and listen when others point out my mistakes, only so I could be better. I’m saying hello to someone who knows what she’s doing and how to react properly, someone who, despite having experienced a lot, is still humble enough to take in criticisms – both negative and positive, someone who knows how to accept things because she knows that God works all things together for her good and others.